rant

you.
You think you're a big shot.
You complain about lack of playing time.
You're late for trainings if we're lucky
and just skip trainings if you feel like it
Then you bitch about how little chance you are given
You don't stay with the team
You never ever want to eat with us
You believe everyone else is below you.
You use your links to former powers and convince yourself that we are a waste of time
a waste of your fucking time.
And maybe you're right
we'll never be champions
and maybe you're right
we are wasting our time
chasing a pipe dream that will never ever materialize
but you know what?
you don't deserve that shirt
People who have worked harder
given more
trained through pain
deserve that hallowed jersey.
Blood, sweat, tears.
Does it mean anything to you?
While we give our heart and soul
you sit at home.
The moment you hear its PT
you go home.
Give some fucked up excuse on going to the doctor's
What the fuck.
Can you even look me in the eye?
and tell me that all i've just said are lies?
Its not like you were forced to be such a bastard
please.
you are an adult
Those who have given everything
We are a band of brothers
you and me?
we ain't bros.
so just fuck off.

i wonder why

it must be karma.
I wish i was perfect
and god knows i tried.
i wonder why

bizarre

This is bizarre. watch it before it's banned.

karma

*teacher's day, 2005


we are, we are all innocent - Our Lady peace







To keep in line with the hilarious theme

at 19:54 Ruiyi sms-ed me: " Watching channel 5 now?"

I replied " yeah. miss singapore universe. why?"

He replied:" got a lot girls the face langgar lorry many times over."

hahaha laughed through the commercial break.

bleed

My dreams are being razed to the ground;
I'm bound helpless to a chair.
Rome is burning;
Chosen warriors are slacking
I stay silent
My heart bleeds.

math musings

The variance of a random variable X, denoted by Var(X), is given by

2 2 2
var(X) = E(X-u) = E(X) - [E(X)]




For a discrete random variable X,

E(X) = sum of P(X=x)

and

E(X^2) = sum of X^2 P(X=x)

Var(X) = E(X^2) - E(X)^2








This page totally cracked me up.

a pledge

This is a pledge to be happy!
no more emo posts!






haha yeah right

project work

Received project work results today. Yupp got an A!
It is perhaps only in hwachong that when you get an A that it feels distinctly average. When the national average for PW "A's" is about 20% and about 85% of your school gets As, something is wrong. Seriously.


Nationals have been kind of depressing for me due to the playing time (or rather due to lack of). I'll just keep trying hard and hope that i will don the jersey one day and play. I seriously hope that i can play against Temasek on Monday.


NJC won their match against Yishun 4-0 which a certain khoo opened accounts. Kudos to them for their hardwork; they have certainly come far.



i wish life would be more relenting sometimes. Life's a struggle.

war

It's war.
Tomorrow.
The butterflies in my stomach are on steroids.



lets live this dream.


TEAM HWACHONG

everything's fine

I received my A-level receipt yesterday.
In a blur, has it really been so long?
JC's almost over.

The promise.

"I'M SIGNIFICANT!!"



screamed the ant.
To no one in particular.